Strive for independence with every fiber of your being. Your family that you live with doesn’t love you.
That’s why they’re dicks to you. They lie and tell you it’s “for your own good” or some other bullshit. But really they’re afraid to admit that they don’t know how to love you… They may not know how to love anyone.
Being grounded for 2/3 of the year every year - when you have no disciplinary or legal troubles - is imprisonment, it is not just punishment. Making you eat vomit is not an important life lesson, it is abuse. A person who openly favors one child over the other doesn’t love any of her children, least of all you.
Your brothers learned to love from someone incapable of loving. That’s why they are indifferent to your suffering. That’s why they only care what you can do for them and feel no obligation to do anything that benefits you.
You can’t snap your fingers and be independent. But it is within your grasp if you reach for it. Reach for it with your entire being.
Your dad is reaching out now because you’re 18 and he doesn’t have to deal with a psycho to get ahold of you anymore. Hold him accountable, but trust his intentions. He’s rusty at relating, but let him show you how much he loves you. And use that to remind you of how much the others don’t.
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Don’t go to university directly after school. Get an apprenticeship as a software developer or better yet, as a webdeveloper in a company that creates websites for customers.
Get a car! Be independent! This is the freedom you so desperately need. With a finished apprenticeship and a possibility to leave your old life behind… The rest will fall into place. Everywhere is better than staying in the pity puddle that is your hometown.
Do NOT enlist in the military. They will use you, leave you mentally and emotionally fucked, and leave you by the side of the road when they’re done.
Doesn’t matter, wouldn’t have listened.
Real
You have ADHD. If you don’t do something about it, it will undermine you your whole life and you’ll blame yourself.
Also, take up running. You’re really good at it, and future you wishes she took it up when she was your age
tell someone you’re depressed.
This is your last chance to admit your feelings before you drift apart and you never talk to her again.
Also, be nicer to grandma and spend more time with her, you have far less time than you’ve convinced yourself you have.
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- you’re a worthless excuse for human being
- drop your college course rn, maths and physics are shit for nerds don’t delve into it unless you really like it (you don’t)
- get therapy (call your dad and lay out all the shit you that’s been bugging you)
- after you have tried your best at p 3, get on psychotropic meds asap. figure it out on your own lol
- practice singing
The dad one hit me. Did that yesterday and today he practically pretends it didn’t happened. But yeah, I think this is a good advice for the youngesters, confront your parents if needed. I wish I didn’t wait till 25 to do it. Hope you are okay now, or getting better, even if by a little day by day. AND PRACTICE YOUR SINGING
Jump, do it
Not a god damn thing, not that he’d listen.
Drop out of college to enter the workforce as you were not properly prepared for college and you still don’t know what career you want. Don’t join the military. Save up for a car.
Boo! Then I’d run away
If a girl invites you back for coffee, don’t decline because you don’t like coffee. She is probably the one who would send you your first Valentine’s card a few months.
Delay your mother for just a minute on this specific day in 1997, you will save her life.
Go and see Sasha on this day in 2019. She’s going to die and there’s nothing anyone can do about it.
